It was great catching up with The Author in Tokyo over coffee, cake, coffee, cigar, cocktail, cigar, and water – it is really inspiring to meet up with friends who are also following their own megalomaniacal delusions. He’s headed over to Washington DC where The Journalist is studying as well, so I’m looking forward to the news from the other side of the world.
But here in Thailand: the theater is fucking empty; I am the only one living on the third floor. It’s like a bomb went off – The Musician and all the other foriegners have quit. I had suspected that something was up – The Musician was unhappy with the politics of the theatre and was finding it difficult to pursue her own projects and when I was in Taiwan my almost-girlfriend had told me that the teaching program was getting complicated.
I guess that the final straw was that The Musician asked for an 80,000 baht grant from the Ministry of Science to do a project. They liked the proposal so much that they actually awarded her 100,000 baht. I had told her a while ago that if she was unhappy at the theatre that she should leave whenever she felt like the timing was right, and I guess this was it. At first, I wasn’t sure if I should react with an “I’m sorry” or a “Congratulations,” but she seems really excited and we are trying to find a way to meet up incognito while I am here. I guess she stepped on a few toes when she left because she abandoned several projects, including the riverside dinner show. My only advice to her is to manage her grant money carefully – that she earned the money herself and that she shouldn’t spread it too thin between the other particiapnts in the project – more money means more responsibility to make it last for the sake of future projects’ sustainability.
This exodus opens a lot of doors for us, especially since the Matriarch is doing TV again, so she’ll be needing a lot of support from people who can run whole programs (like event marketing and management) at the theatre. Other possibilities include the dinner show and the Bangkok Fringe Festival. I have said no to the festival so far because they have no budget to offer us and I thought that accepting might be asking for trouble: taking on an unpaid title is the same as taking on an unpaid position, an unpaid responsibility, and could result in a situation where we might drop that responsibility if a paying gig comes up. Yes, it could be a great opportunity, but I don’t want to get too involved with pro bono work that could sink us in the long run. Reasoning has been: “If they can’t pay for us, they can’t pay for the project’s security either.” Maybe we could apply for funding on our end: “the Canadian embassy proudly presents the Bangkok Fringe Festival produced by RockerCo and AcroCo?” Who knows.
All this to say that there is a lot of internal political stuff at the theatre that I am trying to steer clear of. The Rocker’s motto is always to stay detatched and aloof whenever there is intrigue going on. It’s best to be ignorant. For myself, I’ve changed this a little bit: it is best to know everything that is going on while seeming ignorant.
I’m presenting our official residency proposal to The Matriarch next week. Other than that… fuck. just a lot of little things that need to get done – budgets mostly. There’s a girl at the theatre that I’m starting to see more and more, but it’s slowing me down a little bit because she comes upstairs to hang out between the hours of 8 am and 18pm when I usually like to work without distractions. I’ll need to have a talk with her about that eventually.