The Contortionist asks how things are going outside of work. Well, there is no “outside of work,” and that means that everything sucks. Today I had a really depressing meeting with another producer friend of mine… I’m basically about to give up on everything in Japan. I am looking to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.
It feels like The Contortionist is saying goodbye to me as a boyfriend but maybe everything in my life just looks really dark to me right now.
I am at a new low in my life, feeling really alone. Things were going so well here, I was going 200kph, and all of a sudden, the road runs out from under me.
I have no real energy left anymore. I feel like everything I wanted just got pulled away from me. I feel like I have wasted a good two months on a lot of nothing. I am not going to start anything new here and just let all the offers fall, one after another, until I can finally leave with a clean conscience.