The Contortionist asks how things are going outside of work.  Well, there is no “outside of work,” and that means that everything sucks.  Today I had a really depressing meeting with another producer friend of mine…  I’m basically about to give up on everything in Japan.  I am looking to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.

It feels like The Contortionist is saying goodbye to me as a boyfriend but maybe everything in my life just looks really dark to me right now.

I am at a new low in my life, feeling really alone.  Things were going so well here, I was going 200kph, and all of a sudden, the road runs out from under me.

I have no real energy left anymore.  I feel like everything I wanted just got pulled away from me.  I feel like I have wasted a good two months on a lot of nothing.  I am not going to start anything new here and just let all the offers fall, one after another, until I can finally leave with a clean conscience.