My computer died so I had to reinstall everything. These two weeks of silence have stemmed from me feeling as though nothing I accomplish in life is going to make me that I’ve finished anything. Weird to look ahead at a whole lifetime of feeling that way. But what is, is.
I’ve been feeling very misanthropic. It’s just been frustration with people who seem to be at the school just to have fun and play around and pretend to be circus artists. It makes it difficult to really train seriously. I’ve been concentrating so much on the problems I have on form in handstands or that various tricks aren’t coming.
We have a new huge coach for hand to hand, Ivan, who is taking over for Sylvain. We call him “Ivan the Terrible” (behind his back of course), but we all really like him. He worked in Australia for 9 years. Sylvain is working with him now because he doesn’t speak any French, just English and Russian and it is obvious that there is a big difference in their styles. I get to be a flyer and a porter which is all good.
Today The Clown and I went on a “porter strike” in ITA because the Quebecois in our ITA class had been complaining that we never do trapeze or high bar. So today, we just did that and left the flyers to port each other which I’m not sure they enjoyed. I think they got our point and we got to relax from porting for a day!
We’ve had two Quebecois guests come to talk to us about substance abuse and balance and life. We all had to bring in a can to make the case that you need to put big stones in your can first and then put the little stones in because if you put the little things in first there won’t be any room for the big things. It was in French so I didn’t get any of that and ended up asking why we had to bring the cans in just after they had gone through that whole explanation in French. Oops.
We had a presentation about psychoactive drugs and The Clown and I had to do a sketch about stimulants, depressants, and psychoactive drugs. W e imitated the nervous system before and after alcohol and then acted out what our classmates were reading in a monotone about stimulants which culminating in us running out of the room and stripping to our underwear in the hallway and then running back in. Then, I read about hallucinogens as The Clown acted it out with me eventually joining in doing contact improvisation in our underwear. The class next door told us we had to be quiet a few times.
I’ll be playing Aladdin for our acting class’ final presentation and it’s hard getting people to have realistic characters – they always want to play cartoonish images like old people with bent-over backs and canes and things like that. Its also a challenge getting them to be more perfectionistic. Their point of view is that “everyone knows the story so why do we need to show everything?”
Yesterday we had a good time doing our first workshop for the end of the year show and things went pretty well but it really comes down to who you work with. If you work with the right people you know you’re ok. I ended up working with a great group. We’re working on things that we’re going to do in the outside part of the show. We were in the car wash group, another group worked on VIP scenario, and another worked on a picnic animation that we’re doing with the public.
The night before at a duo birthday party for The Tumbler/complaining session, The Gang were all worried that we were going to end up working with people we didn’t get along with.
I think part of reason I’ve been feeling low energy the last couple of weeks or months believe it or not has been a lack of tuna. I say that because after not much protein for a really long while I had a can of tuna today and found I had a lot of energy for the rest of the day, so I think there’s something about the protein in the tuna or something that really helps.