So I’ve remembered what it feels like to be a circus artist now after my first saturday recentering day back after vacation. I’m actually not in as bad shape as I thought I was going to be in as far as strength and flexibility. I just did a lighter version of my saturday recentering stuff: only one set of each strength series and only held flexibility positions for 45 seconds instead of a minute. My kicks are still where they were and my pike isn’t as bad as I thought as it was. I did lose side splits but those are just not coming easily at all.
Working with The Hotshot on our 2x 8 bars was fun and I think that what we’ve put together is pretty cool. The women in the class are going to complain some fo the one-leg fondus. I like working with people that you don’t have to be too polite with and who are excited about what they’re doing. It just makes the ideas really flow very easily. It makes working egoless so you can just focus on making something that looks cool in the end.
i also worked on some rudi’s into the pit and discovered that if you actually look at the ground make a full rotation after coming off the minitramp before wrapping tighter to get the last half around it really is much easier and you don’t have to worry about overrotating – you know exactly where you are. I was going a little crooked but I did about 10 of them for consistency down. I’m really trying to focus on basics with professors and then and work these more complicated skills on my own. Trying to develop that sort of patience to let the body and the mind develop in parallel – the mind’s awareness of what the body’s doing, “air sense” essentially, is developed simultaneously.
The Contortionist and The Dreamer who were also there so it was fun to have just the three of us working in the gym.
It’s weird how it feels like at this gym I’m more motivated than at the MIT gym. Is it the sense that you’re going to be evaluated? That would worry me because ultimately your motivation to excel should come from within yourself. I’m worried that in this respect going to school for circus is almost like a motivational crutch.
I was thinking about how yesterday Byamba motioned to something in the corner and shook his head “no.” I had no idea what he was talking about at the time but now I wonder if he meant that he didn’t want me to work rolla bolla anymore. After taking a sauna for the first time in forever (which felt great) I had to ask myself if I actually would stop working it. In a way, it gives me the opportunity to train with him on things like acrobatics which he clearly thought would be a good idea. If he is my “master” I should go with what his instincts.
If i hadn’t gone in today (which was tempting as I had overslept a bit) I still wouldn’t be feeling like a circus artist. This is really important because I think feeling like a circus artist is a prerequisite to actually training in the circus fashion. It’s important stuff – glad I got a chance to recenter and remember that it is for myself that I’m in here.